Bless my soul im so tired! I am grateful but hella tired. Its my first day at my new job...same company, different branch. I used to work behind my house but now i work on the other side of town which means a 2 hour commute just cuz if the traffic i now would be facing on a daily...5 days a week (yes b4 my break i was working for 4 days) :( God help you...this is such a huge difference from my work life of the past year...i hope i dont quench!
In other news its NOVEMBER!!!! Woot wooot! Its my brithday month people!!!! I am excited...yet i am not. Im excited cuz i get to feel special for at least 1 day this month but im not so excited cuz well...asides my getting older, i dont think i have much to celebrate. Yes i know that i am alive is enough but still...
Infact scratch that...i have a job...thats good enough to celebrate right? Im still struggling to come closer to God and in the past year i have almost gotten there...then i fell back again and im not happy about it but...God just give me the grace that i need. What else...im a graduate (even though i wish i had finished with something better...but what can i say or do about it now i mean...its over and done with. Errrmmmm...yea i just finished my NYSC without any issues i believe. Oh yea i am getting closer to my mum....we r not close o! But i am getting closer...i do understand her, i do understand that we r two very different people, and i know i currently live under her roof now and she is set in her ways so really im the one with few choices in our relationship. LoL. Still cant talk to her about other stuff...like personal stuff asides from work. maybe i would get there some day.
What else is there...oh yea my siblings! My brother is working my sister just started uni...and they seem to be at good places in their lives now...im happy and oh so proud of them! They have not a clue! They make me feel better about myself. At least my screw ups dont rub off on them LoL! My dad is my dad...watching him closely now...that is all...for now -_-
As for the man issue...i shant talk about it much but em...things have been slightly complicated. Apparently i em...give off vibes that do not favor me LoL. Apparently i come off as some one who needs someone, or as someone who is already taken (imagine) or as a lesbian! Now now...this one i have been battling for a while...WHAT THE HELL!?!?! How?? Like i like men....strong men! How do i look ike i like gurls...and y on earth are females coming on to me?? no1 should come with any of that "maybe its a sign" shit cuz i will kill u... I admit the notion was interesting to think about initially...but i am NOT venturing into that...NEVER! So if no1 feels like dating me they should just say so....cuz all these excuses r rubbing me up wrong... LMAO!
Na im good on that front...tryna get myself to a certan stage b4 im serious...even though i am seriously lusting after someone at the moment...LORD HELP ME 2 TURN AWAY! Its sooo hard! *sobbery*
The moral of this story is that as i am i have a lot to b thankful for...a lot to change and a lot to improve but still...i thank God...so here's to November!
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