Day 4

Well i said it wasnt for sure that i would blog everyday... Yes its too early but still...*insert poop here* Omdayz Im tired!!! Like my eyes hurt! Oh dear...i am grateful 2 God though...i havent called in sick yet despite all temptations to. Yes i know its only day 4... STOP JUDGING ME! Whatever you say...im tired...i would soon go to the toilet to sleep. I have soo much work to do though. Sleep is NOT an option...

Now the traffic situation in this my country is REALLY worrying me and i really want to do something about it. Lord knows what though...pity 1 cant just look for the governor and talk to him. Lord knows i want to...

Things could be much simpler...but there are rules...and complications.

I was having a heart to heart with my cousin last nite...and I realised something...something im not entirely comfortable with as well. Lord help me i beg You. This i do not need....

As you can see do not have much to say...i do but...not today

#NowPlaying Undisputed- MI... not bad...

Day-2

I left earlier than yesterday...got to work in a slightly shorter period of time than yesterday...and i got to work early enough to sleep in the car for a bit...i hope this lasts through out the time i work here sha...

I dont know y...i think i got this from a fellow blogger but i do feel the need to blog everyday this month... Knowing me this may not pan out eventually...oh well i do have something to share. Got this message n my facebook inbox...from this group i joined called 'People who strictly believe the bible'... You can check it out here----> http://www.facebook.com/group.php?gid=24400519166

Well here it is...i learned this morning. I hope you do too...


Hi,
I know its been a while since I sent messages but by the grace of God I shall resume sending some now. I hope we are still remembering who we are in Christ. I have been blessed heavily by this article you are about to read. If you are a controlling, manipulating person who will do anything to get your way, this message is for you.

Control and Manipulation
by Dr. Larry Ollison
Depression, jealousy, and emotional outbursts have often been considered the result of frustration and stress in life. However, recently I have noticed several people who have used depression, jealousy, and emotional outbursts as a form of control.
It may seem difficult to believe that a depressed person isn't really depressed, or that a jealous person isn't really jealous, or that an emotional outburst is not fueled by anger. However, many times this is true.
As Christians, we must never attempt to control people through manipulation. Control and manipulation is rebellion against God's plan for someone else. A person who relentlessly attempts to control another usually becomes so focused on the control that their minds cannot be changed. This is a type of stubbornness.
According to the Bible, rebellion and stubbornness are not of God.
"For rebellion is as the sin of witchcraft, and stubbornness is as iniquity and idolatry." (1 Samuel 15:23)
We must break the spirit of control in our lives. Galatians 5:22 tells us that a part of the fruit of the spirit is self-control. Yes, we must take control of our own lives and not allow sin to enter. We must pray for and do good to others. We must love them and not think of ourselves as higher than them. However, we must never try to bring someone closer to God or closer to the way we think they should be by way of control.
Depression, jealousy, and emotional outbursts are all based in fear. Any time fear is used to restructure a situation, it's wrong. God never uses fear as a motivation, but God motivates through love. Love covers a multitude of sins. Love changes lives. Love reveals God's true nature and love is what will bring people into a right understanding of where they should be.
So the next time you catch yourself trying to manipulate someone through your emotions, stop it. Think about what you are doing and start operating in love instead of fear. Anything that you do that is associated with fear has its roots in the devil.
Remember this. God has not given you a spirit of fear, but of power and of love and of a sound mind. (2 Timothy 1:7)

Thank you everybody for all the positive feedback. God bless you indeed.

The month of the Scorpio...

Bless my soul im so tired! I am grateful but hella tired. Its my first day at my new job...same company, different branch. I used to work behind my house but now i work on the other side of town which means a 2 hour commute just cuz if the traffic i now would be facing on a daily...5 days a week (yes b4 my break i was working for 4 days) :( God help you...this is such a huge difference from my work life of the past year...i hope i dont quench!

In other news its NOVEMBER!!!! Woot wooot! Its my brithday month people!!!! I am excited...yet i am not. Im excited cuz i get to feel special for at least 1 day this month but im not so excited cuz well...asides my getting older, i dont think i have much to celebrate. Yes i know that i am alive is enough but still...

Infact scratch that...i have a job...thats good enough to celebrate right? Im still struggling to come closer to God and in the past year i have almost gotten there...then i fell back again and im not happy about it but...God just give me the grace that i need. What else...im a graduate (even though i wish i had finished with something better...but what can i say or do about it now i mean...its over and done with. Errrmmmm...yea i just finished my NYSC without any issues i believe. Oh yea i am getting closer to my mum....we r not close o! But i am getting closer...i do understand her, i do understand that we r two very different people, and i know i currently live under her roof now and she is set in her ways so really im the one with few choices in our relationship. LoL. Still cant talk to her about other stuff...like personal stuff asides from work. maybe i would get there some day.



What else is there...oh yea my siblings! My brother is working my sister just started uni...and they seem to be at good places in their lives now...im happy and oh so proud of them! They have not a clue! They make me feel better about myself. At least my screw ups dont rub off on them LoL! My dad is my dad...watching him closely now...that is all...for now -_-

As for the man issue...i shant talk about it much but em...things have been slightly complicated. Apparently i em...give off vibes that do not favor me LoL. Apparently i come off as some one who needs someone, or as someone who is already taken (imagine) or as a lesbian! Now now...this one i have been battling for a while...WHAT THE HELL!?!?! How?? Like i like men....strong men! How do i look ike i like gurls...and y on earth are females coming on to me?? no1 should come with any of that "maybe its a sign" shit cuz i will kill u... I admit the notion was interesting to think about initially...but i am NOT venturing into that...NEVER! So if no1 feels like dating me they should just say so....cuz all these excuses r rubbing me up wrong... LMAO!
Na im good on that front...tryna get myself to a certan stage b4 im serious...even though i am seriously lusting after someone at the moment...LORD HELP ME 2 TURN AWAY! Its sooo hard! *sobbery*

The moral of this story is that as i am i have a lot to b thankful for...a lot to change and a lot to improve but still...i thank God...so here's to November!